Well, that's the way it's looking right now. If I'm going to be going to college than I need to start saving, and skating isn't helping me do that. And, I really don't enjoy it as much as I used to. I wish I did, it's a beautiful sport. Though, the most important reason to stop is because I know the only reason I'm doing this is to get noticed. I don't think I've ever really consciously thought this but, I want to be famous and I need to stop wanting that. It's not about me.
And I haven't glorified God in any way through figure skating, so I shouldn't be doing it at all.
Well there's my answer I guess. I was going to go on about how much I don't enjoy it, but how much fun I had at practice yesterday. And maybe I do have what it takes, I'm lazy, undetermined and passive, but I can change that, right? But do I need figure skating to change that? What's the verse? If you are faithful with little you will be faithful with much (something like that) So maybe I do need to stop skating, so that I can learn to be faithful with all of the little things in my life. But I don't want to!
Would it really be giving up? or just refocusing? It's not like I was headed anywhere fast in this sport, so it can't be that I'm "giving up" or "quitting"...?
There is another major fault of mine. With how analytical I am it's a miracle that I have the faith to believe in Jesus! But I guess for anybody and everybody, that is a miracle.
So I need to "quit" skating. How in the world am I going to tell my coach?!
1 comment:
Sweet Samia,
Just because you are not going to practice skating on a regular basis does not mean that skating is lost to you forever. You can go and skate for fun, just for the sheer joy of floating on the ice with the knowledge that you are not going to fall down, that you can spin, jump, and skate backwards! Your skates are not out the window! On the contrary! They are now a play thing. (Hooray!!!) You can choreograph your feelings out on the ice. You can drive hard and fast, get out of breath, and get "stuff" out. You can hum, be in your own little world and dance for God and God alone. Let Him see your beauty in your ice skating. Let Him notice you. You have lost nothing. You have gained a way to put your feelings into action, just like someone who can play the piano from ear. You have a gift. You cannot give up a gift because it is within you. You are blessed to have had lessons. Continue your skating for pleasure, don't regret giving up the grind. :-)
Have a great day, my talented, beautiful niece.
I love you. -Ante S.
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